還記得5歲的時候，與媽媽分開後，從新加坡被帶到了一個陌生的環境‘砂勞越’生活。不管是語言也好，人物也罷；我都覺得毫無安全感。幼小的我，根本就不知道到底發生了什么事，爲什么我會被安置在這個陌生地方。
直到懂事了，才知道原來父母已經分開了，我很難再見到我媽媽了。
就這樣，與爺爺奶奶一起開始生活。
就這樣，變成了不正統的鄉下小孩。
就這樣，待了14年，小孩變年輕人。
童年，並沒有自己想像中那樣的生活; 印象中，那里好熱，好多動物，好多樹木；個子細瘦的我連一杯水都沒辦法拿穩。躱在屋里不敢到處走動，因爲開始害怕了。
其實自己向往的童年應該是在新加坡長大，跟媽媽一快生活，走着城市的步伐；而不是寄人離下的長大。感覺的確不一樣，也不好受。夜夜哭喊着媽媽，安全感在黑夜也逐漸消失了……
文章摘自：http://www.lifetv.com.my/node/15381?tid=26
Melvin Sia Blog 1: Parents divorced
I still remember I had been brought from Singapore to a strange city "Sarawak" after the separation with my mom at 5 years old. I felt insecure, being the language or the people at my surrounding. I was so young, I simply do not know what had happened and why I had to live at such a place where totally strange to me.
When time goes by, I had grown up, I understand that my parents had divorced. It is very difficult for me to meet my mom. I stayed with my grandparents. I became a "kampung boy". I stayed there for 14 years.
My childhood-days were not what I imagined; in my memory, there was humid, had a lot of animals and trees. I was tall and skinny, I could not even hold a glass of water firmly. I cooped myself and dared not moving around because I felt insecure.
The childhood that I wished for is grew up living with my mom in Singapore indeed and kept pace in the changes of the city. To me, it was miserable. I cried for mom every night, a sense of security has gradually disappeared in the darkness ......
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