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還記得5歲的時候,與媽媽分開後,從新加坡被帶到了一個陌生的環境‘砂勞越’生活。不管是語言也好,人物也罷;我都覺得毫無安全感。幼小的我,根本就不知道到底發生了什么事,爲什么我會被安置在這個陌生地方。

直到懂事了,才知道原來父母已經分開了,我很難再見到我媽媽了。
就這樣,與爺爺奶奶一起開始生活。
就這樣,變成了不正統的鄉下小孩。
就這樣,待了14年,小孩變年輕人。

童年,並沒有自己想像中那樣的生活; 印象中,那里好熱,好多動物,好多樹木;個子細瘦的我連一杯水都沒辦法拿穩。躱在屋里不敢到處走動,因爲開始害怕了。

其實自己向往的童年應該是在新加坡長大,跟媽媽一快生活,走着城市的步伐;而不是寄人離下的長大。感覺的確不一樣,也不好受。夜夜哭喊着媽媽,安全感在黑夜也逐漸消失了……

文章摘自:http://www.lifetv.com.my/node/15381?tid=26

Melvin Sia Blog 1: Parents divorced

I still remember I had been brought from Singapore to a strange city "Sarawak" after the separation with my mom at 5 years old. I felt insecure, being the language or the people at my surrounding. I was so young, I simply do not know what had happened and why I had to live at such a place where totally strange to me.

When time goes by, I had grown up, I understand that my parents had divorced. It is very difficult for me to meet my mom. I stayed with my grandparents. I became a "kampung boy". I stayed there for 14 years.

My childhood-days were not what I imagined; in my memory, there was humid, had a lot of animals and trees. I was tall and skinny, I could not even hold a glass of water firmly. I cooped myself and dared not moving around because I felt insecure.

The childhood that I wished for is grew up living with my mom in Singapore indeed and kept pace in the changes of the city. To me, it was miserable. I cried for mom every night, a sense of security has gradually disappeared in the darkness ......

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  • 悄悄話
  • 悄悄話
  • kusoradio
  • 听了觉得好心酸。童年也已经是过去事了嘛。努力地往前面走,未来会更好滴!加油!~
    告诉自己以后有了孩子时一定要给他一个很好的生活环境!
  • 祖强
  • 每一个过去,造就了现在,而每一个现在,将组成未来。每一个瞬间,都弥足珍贵。把握现在,无论是好或是坏,都不要给生活把自己给打败了!
  • 冰の结界
  • 没有过去,就没有现在
    过去是让我们学习成长
    未来是让我们学习打拼
  • 悄悄話
  • 悄悄話
  • suzhen
  • its always quite sad to think about the past.. but will still have to face it no matter what.
    so think positive n go on with ur life haha~
    gdluck!!
  • Vivian
  • 没有过去的佳见,就没有现在的佳见。
    过去的就让它停留在那时刻,好好把握现在的时刻;未来还有更长远的路途要走,但你至少不再是孤独一人。
    忠心祝福你,佳见;加油,佳见。^^
  • MelvinSia
  • 谢谢大家的加油,我会好好的。
  • 悄悄話
  • del
  • extremely touching..my younger days were kinda similar to yours. just a slight difference..while i was reading it, i thought of myself..
  • 悄悄話
  • 悄悄話